stardustofdawn | catch-all for xue

He sits up when Xingchen nudges him. He is glad to see the items to make it more comfortable. This being a bit more prepared then their first time in that room. His eyebrow quirks up at the questions and then he laughs. He honestly ca give and receive with equal enjoyment.

"I find it more interesting when you take charge, daozhang." Xingchen is such a soft soul that when he actually becomes more forceful it becomes more exciting. But he isn't opposed to being the one in control.

"But I like it either way. It's more fun to keep changing it up."

It helps to come in and prepare to set the mood. With a nod, his pale cheeks blushing. "Ah, I see. I'm trying to understand..." He is a soft soul, but he does have a gentle determination. "I don't mind changing and switching." He admits, depending on the mood.

"So, if it's fun, do you actually like it and get excited? Does it help you make you feel calm?"

"Sex isn't about feeling calm, daozhang. It usually has the opposite effect." Unless they are doing it wrong. Usually for him it gets everything fired up and fills him with more energy then he had before.

"it's not something to be calm about if you really want to make it good." Passion and fire and excitement. That is what he sees sex being about. It's just like a good fight or battle.

Nothing is wrong, he's more curious than anything, being inexperienced, but he's learning and studying him before initiating. "Really? You seem calm after you're exhausted."

His own passion and fire is more solemn and quieter. Like a steady fire that keeps the hearth of a fireplace warm and doesn't go out, and warms up on a cold day inside the home.

"I don't...I don't seem to be your type in bed." He said quietly, so he felt some doubt when taking charge. "So I was worried if you're happy and satisfied and if it's enough."

He gives a curious head tilt at that comment. Curious as to when he ever gave the impression that he wasn't at all satisfied by their encounters. He certainly didn't have any issues with the times they had had sex. There is very little that Xingchen could do to displease him. Just don't say a certain person's name...

"And what do you think my type is? I've been perfectly content with what we have done together."

He looks demure and suddenly felt shy. "Ah...I don't know. Do you have an ideal lover or I'm just fine? You're very handsome and you can have anyone you want. But if you're perfectly content, then I'm content too."

After some thought, "As a lover, I always like to give and go my way to make that special someone happy."

"An ideal lover is just one that only thinks about me." He doesn't need any more then that. It's not like he has ever had someone he would consider a lover before. That feels more long term with more emotional connection. For him, all other sexual encounters were more for fun then anything else.

"You already are my perfect lover, daozhang."

"That's asking a lot, Xue Yang. Given your past, you're asking for a lover who sees past your flaws and loves you for who you are, and will stand with you."

Xingchen is going to slide his arms around him to hold him in his arms for a hug. "What I want...it's more than sex. Yes, it feels good but wouldn't it better if it's with someone you love and that person will stay with you always and support you?"

He's going to give him a nuzzle on the throat, "I'm glad to hear that. I'm not perfect, but I will try my best to fit you."

He relaxes against him, sliding his own arms around after a moment of hesitation. It will take a lot more time for him to get used to casual contact. But he is getting better at it.

"Are you not those things already, daozhang? Haven't you already started looking past my flaws and staying by my side to support me?"

He feels relaxed, sharing his feelings and that little doubt in his heart started to ease. "Xue Yang, I'm only human and even I can make errors. I definitely see you now and I'll stay by your side. I just don't want to disappoint you. In my final moments before I died, I'm..."

In his final moments, he is very rattled by the man's last words for him. The man whom he once was. But he realized he's different now, and he changed. "I'm actually weak, you know? Not perfect. I'm too kind and gentle, and you might want someone stronger. I'll happily stay with you forever if you can accept that flaw and weakness of me."

"What you see as your weakness is what kept me by your side in Yi City all those years." The kindness that was shown to him when no one else had ever bothered to waste their time in doing so for him. Xingchen was the only person who seemed to accept him...even if he didn't realize it was him at the time. That had been enough for him to change and to start to try and find ways to stay by Xingchen's side.

He's a little surprised hearing that from him and he feels humbled by him. Slowly, very slowly, he opens up to him, being more candid. More than anything, he feels validated by him.

"The weakness in my heart holds me back and I thought you despised it then. I was blind because I thought I did the right thing. When I found you injured on the road and didn't know it was you, I only wanted to help and thought of nothing else. I let people take what I have and let them keep it, and I wouldn't mind. Right now, I would think you would want somebody else, so giving pieces of myself and my heart away to heal what's broken to make things right again...it just my nature." Give his eyes away to Zichen to heal his blindness, give A-Qing a home to heal her homelessness, and give Xue Yang his heart to heal his heart.

A pause, a beat, "But if you don't mind, then...I think for as long the train runs, we can do it together. Have this perfect love everyday and sleep with you everyday if you desire."

"Everyday you want to sleep with me? You are quite insatiable, daozhang. Or maybe i'm the one that makes you that way."

Because of course that is the part of this conversation that he latches onto. He's a gremlin when it comes to finding the things that can be used to mess with people the most. He has used sex and teasing people about their desires as a good way to mess with them on several occasions.

"Do you really have the energy to do it everyday? You'll have to stop studying earlier."

Xingchen figured this is the part he's looking forward to, waiting and was hoping for. "You're quite insatiable yourself. I don't mind as long you behave and be good, and doing the best that you can."

He's going to slide his arms around his midsection, so he could feel comfortable, starting with a hug first. He's a slow lover, slow to start and to initiate. He brings him closer to press his body for close contact and warmth and have him sit on his lap.

"Yes, everyday. As long I'm the one you desire in your heart. And no, that depends on the need."

He wraps his arms around him, smirking as the man draws him into his lap. He settles there comfortably. "You will always be the only one daozhang." No one else is worthy of having any sort of place in his heart.

"And I always do my best when having sex." There are very few things that Xue Yang doesn't put his full energy into. He certainly wouldn't hold back when it came to sex.

He has proven to be worthy of his attention and his love. "You're very sweet."

Being shy and initiating, his hands wandered over his body, roaming over his figure. If he learns a few things with Xue Yang during their time together, making love, is that his body enjoys and craves the undivided attention.

"Let takes this off." He removes the other clothing, undressing. "All of it." Starting with whatever he's wearing and his pants off.

He tosses his clothing aside, standing up briefly so he can remove his pants as well before settling back into Xingchen's lap. he tilts his head with a curious expression, not at all ashamed of the fact he is now nakedly perched on top of the other man.

"So what are we going to do today? Do you have a plan daozhang?"

Now they're both naked and he feels his body being warmed up with him sitting on his lap and the closeness of their bodies together. He massages his broad shoulders to help him relax. He finds his body strong and lithe, strong from all the fighting and handling his sword well.

Thoughtfully, "Figuring out what we both enjoy. Though I do recall you are most relaxed when you surrender and let me pleasure you when you show me the other day. I want to do better this time." He's going to reach for the bottle of the lube to slick up his long slender fingers.

"I like it when I help you feel less tense." With a bit of maneuvering, he spreads his legs wide to search for his tight hole and slides his wet finger inside deep by a knuckle to stretch him out and touch him to stroke his heat.

"I'm always less tense around you, daozhang." He hums, back arching very slightly when he feels that finger press inside of him. He has a pretty high threshold for pain and so he barely has to endure much discomfort from this sort of thing. He already had gotten used to this feeling so all he notices is the pleasurable warmth that he spreads inside of him.

He rocks a little in his lap and against his hand, encouraging him for more contact. Xue Yang has a hunger that needs to be satisfied.

"That's good." It's a strange feeling to be the one in charge, but he's getting better at it. He could feel him moving, wanting more of the friction, so he welcomes him to move his hips, rocking, desiring to be stretch out more.

"You're being eager." He inserts another finger with two, then three to stretch him fully through the tight ring, digging deeper until he finds his prostrate, to help satisfy his hunger, the need to release the tension of his body. "There. You're very tense."

Xue Yang groans as he feels those fingers strike that spot inside of him. He always feels eager when they have moments like this. He could easily ride Xingchen just like this and at that moment without any more preparation.

"I think daozhang is eager too."

It's a new feeling still and it's something to get used to this power dynamic. Xingchen is used to feeling powerless all the time, carrying hopelessness and despair within him being blind while helping the common people without any expectation in return. To see his former enemy surrendering like this...but they're becoming more than friends.

He doesn't want him to ride his fingers. He is careful and considerate, making sure he's adequately prepared, not wanting him to get hurt even with his high pain tolerance.

"You're very soft inside." He continues to press deeper, finding his hidden spot to pleasure him. With a sigh, "Tell me you're feeling ready and I'll put it in." Since that seems like the next logical step to satisy the next high.

"I'm ready, daozhang. I'm ready for you to fill this body up with something better then those fingers." Right now that small lithe body is sitting on top of Xingchen and he puts his hands on his shoulders so that he can lift up slightly, looking down at him with a smirk.

"Should we stay just like this and see how you like it?" Xue Yang enjoys showing Xingchen new things. The man doesn't always have to be laying down to have fun. He proved that to him in the shower.

With a low laugh, amused, "I would very much like fill you with something better and make you feel better too. I'll go with whatever position you're comfortable with." He's open to trying anything new as long it's fun and exciting, and more pleasurable for him.

"Try to relax." He's already hard, his erection is semi-hard, so he's ready. Once Xue Yang maneuvers into a position, he prefers, he's going to guide it and slide inside through a tight ring of muscles, and drove his length all the way inside and waits for him to adjust.

He moans as he slowly lowers down onto that length, nails digging into Xingchen's back as he feels his body being spread open by him. His legs tighten around Xingchen's body as he settles against him and just enjoys that feeling of being completely filled by him for the moment before he rocks his hips.

"Much better then fingers, daozhang."

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