He feels relaxed, sharing his feelings and that little doubt in his heart started to ease. "Xue Yang, I'm only human and even I can make errors. I definitely see you now and I'll stay by your side. I just don't want to disappoint you. In my final moments before I died, I'm..."
In his final moments, he is very rattled by the man's last words for him. The man whom he once was. But he realized he's different now, and he changed. "I'm actually weak, you know? Not perfect. I'm too kind and gentle, and you might want someone stronger. I'll happily stay with you forever if you can accept that flaw and weakness of me."
"What you see as your weakness is what kept me by your side in Yi City all those years." The kindness that was shown to him when no one else had ever bothered to waste their time in doing so for him. Xingchen was the only person who seemed to accept him...even if he didn't realize it was him at the time. That had been enough for him to change and to start to try and find ways to stay by Xingchen's side.
He's a little surprised hearing that from him and he feels humbled by him. Slowly, very slowly, he opens up to him, being more candid. More than anything, he feels validated by him.
"The weakness in my heart holds me back and I thought you despised it then. I was blind because I thought I did the right thing. When I found you injured on the road and didn't know it was you, I only wanted to help and thought of nothing else. I let people take what I have and let them keep it, and I wouldn't mind. Right now, I would think you would want somebody else, so giving pieces of myself and my heart away to heal what's broken to make things right again...it just my nature." Give his eyes away to Zichen to heal his blindness, give A-Qing a home to heal her homelessness, and give Xue Yang his heart to heal his heart.
A pause, a beat, "But if you don't mind, then...I think for as long the train runs, we can do it together. Have this perfect love everyday and sleep with you everyday if you desire."
"Everyday you want to sleep with me? You are quite insatiable, daozhang. Or maybe i'm the one that makes you that way."
Because of course that is the part of this conversation that he latches onto. He's a gremlin when it comes to finding the things that can be used to mess with people the most. He has used sex and teasing people about their desires as a good way to mess with them on several occasions.
"Do you really have the energy to do it everyday? You'll have to stop studying earlier."
Xingchen figured this is the part he's looking forward to, waiting and was hoping for. "You're quite insatiable yourself. I don't mind as long you behave and be good, and doing the best that you can."
He's going to slide his arms around his midsection, so he could feel comfortable, starting with a hug first. He's a slow lover, slow to start and to initiate. He brings him closer to press his body for close contact and warmth and have him sit on his lap.
"Yes, everyday. As long I'm the one you desire in your heart. And no, that depends on the need."
He wraps his arms around him, smirking as the man draws him into his lap. He settles there comfortably. "You will always be the only one daozhang." No one else is worthy of having any sort of place in his heart.
"And I always do my best when having sex." There are very few things that Xue Yang doesn't put his full energy into. He certainly wouldn't hold back when it came to sex.
He has proven to be worthy of his attention and his love. "You're very sweet."
Being shy and initiating, his hands wandered over his body, roaming over his figure. If he learns a few things with Xue Yang during their time together, making love, is that his body enjoys and craves the undivided attention.
"Let takes this off." He removes the other clothing, undressing. "All of it." Starting with whatever he's wearing and his pants off.
He tosses his clothing aside, standing up briefly so he can remove his pants as well before settling back into Xingchen's lap. he tilts his head with a curious expression, not at all ashamed of the fact he is now nakedly perched on top of the other man.
"So what are we going to do today? Do you have a plan daozhang?"
Now they're both naked and he feels his body being warmed up with him sitting on his lap and the closeness of their bodies together. He massages his broad shoulders to help him relax. He finds his body strong and lithe, strong from all the fighting and handling his sword well.
Thoughtfully, "Figuring out what we both enjoy. Though I do recall you are most relaxed when you surrender and let me pleasure you when you show me the other day. I want to do better this time." He's going to reach for the bottle of the lube to slick up his long slender fingers.
"I like it when I help you feel less tense." With a bit of maneuvering, he spreads his legs wide to search for his tight hole and slides his wet finger inside deep by a knuckle to stretch him out and touch him to stroke his heat.
"I'm always less tense around you, daozhang." He hums, back arching very slightly when he feels that finger press inside of him. He has a pretty high threshold for pain and so he barely has to endure much discomfort from this sort of thing. He already had gotten used to this feeling so all he notices is the pleasurable warmth that he spreads inside of him.
He rocks a little in his lap and against his hand, encouraging him for more contact. Xue Yang has a hunger that needs to be satisfied.
"That's good." It's a strange feeling to be the one in charge, but he's getting better at it. He could feel him moving, wanting more of the friction, so he welcomes him to move his hips, rocking, desiring to be stretch out more.
"You're being eager." He inserts another finger with two, then three to stretch him fully through the tight ring, digging deeper until he finds his prostrate, to help satisfy his hunger, the need to release the tension of his body. "There. You're very tense."
Xue Yang groans as he feels those fingers strike that spot inside of him. He always feels eager when they have moments like this. He could easily ride Xingchen just like this and at that moment without any more preparation.
It's a new feeling still and it's something to get used to this power dynamic. Xingchen is used to feeling powerless all the time, carrying hopelessness and despair within him being blind while helping the common people without any expectation in return. To see his former enemy surrendering like this...but they're becoming more than friends.
He doesn't want him to ride his fingers. He is careful and considerate, making sure he's adequately prepared, not wanting him to get hurt even with his high pain tolerance.
"You're very soft inside." He continues to press deeper, finding his hidden spot to pleasure him. With a sigh, "Tell me you're feeling ready and I'll put it in." Since that seems like the next logical step to satisy the next high.
"I'm ready, daozhang. I'm ready for you to fill this body up with something better then those fingers." Right now that small lithe body is sitting on top of Xingchen and he puts his hands on his shoulders so that he can lift up slightly, looking down at him with a smirk.
"Should we stay just like this and see how you like it?" Xue Yang enjoys showing Xingchen new things. The man doesn't always have to be laying down to have fun. He proved that to him in the shower.
With a low laugh, amused, "I would very much like fill you with something better and make you feel better too. I'll go with whatever position you're comfortable with." He's open to trying anything new as long it's fun and exciting, and more pleasurable for him.
"Try to relax." He's already hard, his erection is semi-hard, so he's ready. Once Xue Yang maneuvers into a position, he prefers, he's going to guide it and slide inside through a tight ring of muscles, and drove his length all the way inside and waits for him to adjust.
He moans as he slowly lowers down onto that length, nails digging into Xingchen's back as he feels his body being spread open by him. His legs tighten around Xingchen's body as he settles against him and just enjoys that feeling of being completely filled by him for the moment before he rocks his hips.
Xingchen is an affectionate and attentive lover, although quiet. So wordlessly he concentrates on driving his cock all the way in, thrusting back and forth into his body. With the pleasure that sex brings, he relieves the tension and ache in his body as his length rubs the hot core.
Hearing his moans, he continues. "Seeing you is better too." Seeing he demands attention, he reaches for his length to stroke him in sync with the thrusts, finding a steady rhythm, rewarding his body with slow, deep thrusts.
He moans as he drops his head back, enjoying that overwhelming feeling as that hand adds to the sensations running over his skin and through his body. Xue Yang doesn't mind being the receiver of such trusts or the one giving them. Each has their benefits. Right now he gets to enjoy the feeling of Xingchen's hands on him which definitely is a benefit of this current position.
"Then I'll make sure you always have a good show."
Keeping a rhythm, he wants to keep it steady and remain calm, thrusting him in this same position to build up the pleasure. It's an effort not to come too soon inside of him and maintain his stamina. Perhaps, he has the advantage of having a golden core for the energy.
"A good show for my eyes only." For now, he doesn't think about anything else. He just drives inside of his body for pleasure, and learn to control the pace.
"Let's see some more of you." He thrusts faster, for a little roughness, knowing his body has a higher pain tolerance, mixing in pain and pleasure, and satisfy his craving to be filled.
He moans as his hips roll along with those thrusts, feeling him strike deep inside of him. Hitting that spot that makes the world explode with colors. Pleasure surging through his whole body. He knows how to hold onto that moment for as long as possible.
He grips Xingchen's shoulders, nails digging in. "Nng...I'm close daozhang..."
He can feel that breaking point starting to bubble up to the surface. "A little more."
He has no intention of stopping and he intended to give him more, as many roughness and orgasms as he wants. Perhaps dual cultivation is possible, as he finds this intimacy both tantric and blissful.
"You wanted more? Sure...as much as you want." Using his physical strength, he lifts his legs up higher, so he could thrust forward at a deeper angle. He watches his face carefully as he thrusts forward only to drive right back, driving his length harder and into a deeper place, hitting that hidden spot that he learns and only knew.
Xue Yang wouldn't be one to just let himself go or clearly display pleasure with just anyone he slept with. They have to earn it. But he also wouldn't let just anyone take control of him. A certain level of trust has to be in place. But with Xingchen he lets the man enjoy seeing his unbridled side. More relaxed and willing to give him the show he desires.
So as he dives harder into him, Xue Yang moans and gasps out encouraging words, voicing his approval. Until that moment when he can't hold it back any longer. His hips jerking as his seed spills between them, his body tightening and trembling with that release.
The pleasure is building up, becoming more intense. He could see Xue Yang is more mellowed out and relaxed as of late, especially around him. They work really hard to trust each other. Hearing his approval means the world to him as he was uncertain if he's enjoying this. He could feel him tighten up and then jerked his hips, bodies trembling, his breathing is shallow as he finally climax and spilled his release, filling him with between them with final thrusts.
He stayed inside of him as he reached his finish. A thin sheen of sweat covered him as he basked in the glow of the pleasure.
He settles against him as he enjoys that high. Relaxing and just taking the time to let his breath come back to him. He lets out a content sigh and brings his head forward to rest against Xingchen's shoulder.
He curls with him on the bed, in the makeshift quiet car, enjoying the warmth and bliss of their naked bodies together. It's a little inconvenient, but the privacy provided the much-needed intimacy and comfort, so he wraps his arms around him for a hug.
"It felt nice, A-yang." He said quietly. "I wouldn't mind if we do this everyday."
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In his final moments, he is very rattled by the man's last words for him. The man whom he once was. But he realized he's different now, and he changed. "I'm actually weak, you know? Not perfect. I'm too kind and gentle, and you might want someone stronger. I'll happily stay with you forever if you can accept that flaw and weakness of me."
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"The weakness in my heart holds me back and I thought you despised it then. I was blind because I thought I did the right thing. When I found you injured on the road and didn't know it was you, I only wanted to help and thought of nothing else. I let people take what I have and let them keep it, and I wouldn't mind. Right now, I would think you would want somebody else, so giving pieces of myself and my heart away to heal what's broken to make things right again...it just my nature." Give his eyes away to Zichen to heal his blindness, give A-Qing a home to heal her homelessness, and give Xue Yang his heart to heal his heart.
A pause, a beat, "But if you don't mind, then...I think for as long the train runs, we can do it together. Have this perfect love everyday and sleep with you everyday if you desire."
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Because of course that is the part of this conversation that he latches onto. He's a gremlin when it comes to finding the things that can be used to mess with people the most. He has used sex and teasing people about their desires as a good way to mess with them on several occasions.
"Do you really have the energy to do it everyday? You'll have to stop studying earlier."
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He's going to slide his arms around his midsection, so he could feel comfortable, starting with a hug first. He's a slow lover, slow to start and to initiate. He brings him closer to press his body for close contact and warmth and have him sit on his lap.
"Yes, everyday. As long I'm the one you desire in your heart. And no, that depends on the need."
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"And I always do my best when having sex." There are very few things that Xue Yang doesn't put his full energy into. He certainly wouldn't hold back when it came to sex.
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Being shy and initiating, his hands wandered over his body, roaming over his figure. If he learns a few things with Xue Yang during their time together, making love, is that his body enjoys and craves the undivided attention.
"Let takes this off." He removes the other clothing, undressing. "All of it." Starting with whatever he's wearing and his pants off.
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"So what are we going to do today? Do you have a plan daozhang?"
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Thoughtfully, "Figuring out what we both enjoy. Though I do recall you are most relaxed when you surrender and let me pleasure you when you show me the other day. I want to do better this time." He's going to reach for the bottle of the lube to slick up his long slender fingers.
"I like it when I help you feel less tense." With a bit of maneuvering, he spreads his legs wide to search for his tight hole and slides his wet finger inside deep by a knuckle to stretch him out and touch him to stroke his heat.
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He rocks a little in his lap and against his hand, encouraging him for more contact. Xue Yang has a hunger that needs to be satisfied.
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"You're being eager." He inserts another finger with two, then three to stretch him fully through the tight ring, digging deeper until he finds his prostrate, to help satisfy his hunger, the need to release the tension of his body. "There. You're very tense."
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"I think daozhang is eager too."
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He doesn't want him to ride his fingers. He is careful and considerate, making sure he's adequately prepared, not wanting him to get hurt even with his high pain tolerance.
"You're very soft inside." He continues to press deeper, finding his hidden spot to pleasure him. With a sigh, "Tell me you're feeling ready and I'll put it in." Since that seems like the next logical step to satisy the next high.
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"Should we stay just like this and see how you like it?" Xue Yang enjoys showing Xingchen new things. The man doesn't always have to be laying down to have fun. He proved that to him in the shower.
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"Try to relax." He's already hard, his erection is semi-hard, so he's ready. Once Xue Yang maneuvers into a position, he prefers, he's going to guide it and slide inside through a tight ring of muscles, and drove his length all the way inside and waits for him to adjust.
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"Much better then fingers, daozhang."
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Hearing his moans, he continues. "Seeing you is better too." Seeing he demands attention, he reaches for his length to stroke him in sync with the thrusts, finding a steady rhythm, rewarding his body with slow, deep thrusts.
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"Then I'll make sure you always have a good show."
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"A good show for my eyes only." For now, he doesn't think about anything else. He just drives inside of his body for pleasure, and learn to control the pace.
"Let's see some more of you." He thrusts faster, for a little roughness, knowing his body has a higher pain tolerance, mixing in pain and pleasure, and satisfy his craving to be filled.
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He grips Xingchen's shoulders, nails digging in. "Nng...I'm close daozhang..."
He can feel that breaking point starting to bubble up to the surface. "A little more."
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"You wanted more? Sure...as much as you want." Using his physical strength, he lifts his legs up higher, so he could thrust forward at a deeper angle. He watches his face carefully as he thrusts forward only to drive right back, driving his length harder and into a deeper place, hitting that hidden spot that he learns and only knew.
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So as he dives harder into him, Xue Yang moans and gasps out encouraging words, voicing his approval. Until that moment when he can't hold it back any longer. His hips jerking as his seed spills between them, his body tightening and trembling with that release.
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He stayed inside of him as he reached his finish. A thin sheen of sweat covered him as he basked in the glow of the pleasure.
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"That felt good daozhang."
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"It felt nice, A-yang." He said quietly. "I wouldn't mind if we do this everyday."
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